Manifestations...the journey of making shit happen

November 11, 2013  •  Leave a Comment

"... I just finished one of the most amazing artistic experiences of my life. A true manifestation of my dreams.! I spent 5 days in my Baja beach house shooting with my ARTner, Kristie Lauren. Kristie is one of the finest Contemporary Dancers I have ever seen. Fearless, beautiful, edgy and technically a beast! We have been working together for about four years and this for both of us was a dream come true. To explore locations in Baja and have the luxury of Time, Space and Energy to create what we both feel are our greatest images together. When it was over I came to realize something that I feel is very important. That the manifestation of your dreams is a very long journey with much hard work to be done in order to be fully prepared for all that this represents. I would like to share some of how this worked for me.
It hit me like a lightning bolt one day. The sudden realization that the answer to the secret question for my on-line bank account was my unfulfilled manifestation. The question is “Where would you most like to live? “. The answer is “Mexico” and it had been that way for 15 years. It was enough of a shock that I began reviewing the things in my life that I felt were keeping me from manifesting my own destiny. I separated my life into three categories and identified the issues that were immediately apparent:

Emotional
Physical
Spiritual

Emotionally:
I had to really take a look at myself and be honest about where I truly was emotionally. I was depressed, angry, resentful and confused. I was in a relationship that was very destructive and I had hung onto it for far too long for reasons I could not identify. I was a wreck worrying about financial issues and fearful of what my future would hold. I felt embarrassed by the financial failure of my long term plans.

Physically:
I will include financial issues in this category as it had a huge impact on my physical wellbeing. I had purchased a very cool loft 5 years prior with the typical American Dream of hanging onto it a little longer to realize the growth and retire on the profit. Well the market crashed and I got screwed. I was now living in a place worth far less than it’s loan and denying the impact on my life. Additionally because of this loss I was way behind in my taxes and living in fear that I was going to to jail.

Spiritually:
In reviewing the issues that were present in my emotional and physical existence I realized that they were completely blocking y ability to live with love in my heart and allow my spiritual energy to flow freely. I became aware as an Artist that the lack of spiritual energy was impeding my artistic growth. The issues in my life were creating a situation where I was constantly thinking of myself. I realized that until I began to step by step take care of the emotional and physical issues I had identified that I would have no chance of manifesting my dreams and attaining any spiritual satisfaction.

It was time to take action! None of the solutions to the issues were as easy as they may appear here but I got them done. I broke off the relationship. It was painful and dragged on longer than I would have wanted but I finally felt free and was fueled by a sense of relief. I swallowed my pride, overcame my fear and allowed my loft to go into foreclosure and I filed for bankruptcy. I sought the advice of a tax consultant and took care of my tax issues. They proved to be a very small issue and not the monster that had haunted me. Finally, with these things taken care of, I did the research and found a home to rent in Baja, Mexico. Then I was on my way to making lemonade! I soon discovered that with these issues behind me I was able to live with love in my heart, to be generous and kind and to think of others instead of myself. It is hard to describe but my life has blossomed in ways I never dreamed.

I just finished one of the most amazing artistic experiences of my life. A true manifestation of my dreams.! I spent 5 days in my Baja beach house shooting with my ARTner, Kristie Lauren. Kristie is one of the finest Contemporary Dancers I have ever seen. Fearless, beautiful, edgy and technically a beast! We have been working together for about four years and this for both of us was a dream come true. To explore locations in Baja and have the luxury of Time, Space and Energy to create what we both feel are our greatest images together. When it was over I came to realize something that I feel is very important. That the manifestation of your dreams is a very long journey with much hard work to be done in order to be fully prepared for all that this represents. I would like to share some of how this worked for me.
It hit me like a lightning bolt one day. The sudden realization that the answer to the secret question for my on-line bank account was my unfulfilled manifestation. The question is “Where would you most like to live? “. The answer is “Mexico” and it had been that way for 15 years. It was enough of a shock that I began reviewing the things in my life that I felt were keeping me from manifesting my own destiny. I separated my life into three categories and identified the issues that were immediately apparent:

Emotional
Physical
Spiritual

Emotionally:
I had to really take a look at myself and be honest about where I truly was emotionally. I was depressed, angry, resentful and confused. I was in a relationship that was very destructive and I had hung onto it for far too long for reasons I could not identify. I was a wreck worrying about financial issues and fearful of what my future would hold. I felt embarrassed by the financial failure of my long term plans.

Physically:
I will include financial issues in this category as it had a huge impact on my physical wellbeing. I had purchased a very cool loft 5 years prior with the typical American Dream of hanging onto it a little longer to realize the growth and retire on the profit. Well the market crashed and I got screwed. I was now living in a place worth far less than it’s loan and denying the impact on my life. Additionally because of this loss I was way behind in my taxes and living in fear that I was going to to jail.

Spiritually:
In reviewing the issues that were present in my emotional and physical existence I realized that they were completely blocking y ability to live with love in my heart and allow my spiritual energy to flow freely. I became aware as an Artist that the lack of spiritual energy was impeding my artistic growth. The issues in my life were creating a situation where I was constantly thinking of myself. I realized that until I began to step by step take care of the emotional and physical issues I had identified that I would have no chance of manifesting my dreams and attaining any spiritual satisfaction.

It was time to take action! None of the solutions to the issues were as easy as they may appear here but I got them done. I broke off the relationship. It was painful and dragged on longer than I would have wanted but I finally felt free and was fueled by a sense of relief. I swallowed my pride, overcame my fear and allowed my loft to go into foreclosure and I filed for bankruptcy. I sought the advice of a tax consultant and took care of my tax issues. They proved to be a very small issue and not the monster that had haunted me. Finally, with these things taken care of, I did the research and found a home to rent in Baja, Mexico. Then I was on my way to making lemonade! I soon discovered that with these issues behind me I was able to live with love in my heart, to be generous and kind and to think of others instead of myself. It is hard to describe but my life has blossomed in ways I never dreamed.

 

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